Normally I don't post about my real life situations on unless they directly affect my activities/content on here (well these things kinda do but might I digress) but considering the title of my journal and knowing that I shouldn't keep these kind of things repressed, I might as well explain what's going on.
I've been looking for a job for over 9 months with absolutely no luck. Closest I've gotten to was getting an actual interview at Walmart for some shitty over night janitorial position, and I was only able to get that far because my uncle works as a supervisor at some other Walmart vouched for me, but apparently that still wasn't good enough.
Recently I've been taking a Certified Nursing Assistance class too. The class is alright, goes from 4:30 to 8:30 pm on every Monday and the teacher's nice. Don't really have much to say about that other than the fact that I have to a lot of studying in between the different class dates.
I've also been waiting for the inevitable divorce between my mother and father. Their marriage's been going on for over 25 years or so and they loved each other a lot, but ever since my dad retired things went downhill and then this one night in the beginning of November, really fucking awful but I'm not going into detail about it, but what basically happened was this:
Dad got drunk, goes apeshit over having one of my sister's friends sleeping with them in her room saying that it breaks one of his bullshit "morals", gets into a fight with mom and my sister, scares them off to the point in which they feel unsafe being by him, I get into a fight with my dad, and the day after that I didn't bother talking to him but he says he's sorry, eventually "forgive" him and spend some time with him and then everything's a okay.
Wouldn't have been so bad if the same thing didn't happen 3 weeks ago, which was basically the same fucking thing. It's becoming a cycle, my mom noticed it and so have I. Due to that and that just in general the relationship between the both of them are deteriorating, she's planning on splitting up with my dad. We both don't know when it's going to happen though.
On top of that I've been fighting off depression for quite some time now, I've suspected that I had it but I wasn't sure until I've been having rather unpleasant thoughts (along with getting out of bed to be rather difficult for me since most of the time it would be until the afternoon that I'd finally get up).
This whole thing has been overwhelming for me which would explain why there really hasn't been any stuff from me (even though I never really do put out any pictures anyways).
So yeah, for the people who've been watching me for my content, sorry.